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Thoughts I like to remember:
Do you think a person loves someone else because of who that person is or
because of the way that person makes him/her feel about himself/herself?
I think you love a person for who they are. If they love you, true 'soul mates', then you will automatically feel wonderful about yourself. They make you feel that way without asking for anything in return, or even for your love in return. Remember the nerd who loved you as a boy, and would do anything for you, pick up your books, offer to help with something, always open the door, always seemed to be around when you needed something? You may not have loved that person, but they never stopped trying, and never asked for anything, and you always felt good about that person and yourself. It’s an aura thing.
Have you ever felt as though you were giving your heart, soul, and body to someone all at the same time? You possibly had this once. That truly would require immense trust. I am just not so sure that it really exists. I know I have never experienced it. I wonder if it could be that it really can exist, yet flaws in our make-up hinder the possibility. And a part of the whole sharing thing would be the part of us that is really carnal. Or is that one of the flaws that hinders the beauty? I like the purity of love and trust, but I like the total base nature/act of sex as well and I am not sure if the 2 can really exist together or if there would always be an inner struggle between the 2.
I will help you. And you will help me. We will build trust. And then we shall
see. Bare your soul a little, my love, and we will ride the wind and laugh on
the moon together.
Today is a glorious weather day-cloudy, windy, dark, cool...perfect day for
reading, sipping wine, talking, reflecting, and making love. I need you in my
life.
What activities do you associate with hot, sunny, humid days?
Hot, sunny, humid days are for licking melted banana Popsicle off your lips, running through the sprinkler, reading in a hammock, and making love.
I think you are my soul mate because of the way you make me feel about myself ..like maybe I do have something to offer...that I matter, and all of that . But I must be very careful that finally, at this point in my life, I come to like myself because of me, rather than because of the reflection in your eyes ("I must be OK for someone as wonderful as you is interested") because that would be so temporal. But I also know that you are the only type of person that could BE that, for me. My soul mate could not be a jerk, nor an idiot, nor a male chauvinist, nor just a pretty face. You had to have depth, sensitivity, intellect.
I definitely do NOT believe SM's (soul mates) have to have the same
viewpoints or opinions. In fact, the opposite may be true to some extent. I
think its all about making someone feel good about themselves, having someone
listen who cares and can respond at the same level, to help you grow and you
help them grow, kind of the intangible karma kinds of things. It is probably
more important to have some similar interests, whether or not you share the same
viewpoint about those interests. Its a Tracy-Hepburn thing. In your words, they
'complete you'. I like that choice of words. Did I say what you thought I would?
Do you agree?
I know I love you because of the joy in my heart when the phone rings and
your voice is on the other end. I know I love you when I open my email and there
is a letter from you. I know I love you when I talk to you and you make me feel
better, or make me realize something new, or just help me look at things
differently. I know I love you because you are the first thing I think about in
the morning and the last thought I have at night.
I thought hard about the characteristics of the undefined. I think it involves total trust, selflessness, open expression, commitment to oneness, sharing of anything, knowing each other totally (flaws, warts, and all- even if the warts were removed with our last dollar). Probably some others too. When we can say we have all those characteristics, we can at least know we are well on the way.
When I walked in, I was surrounded by the normal things: perfume counters, jewelry displays, clothes, etc...I swear it was different. The scent of the perfume enveloped me. The jewelry sparkled. The colors of the clothing were more vivid than normal. I could not understand what was happening... then I realized that my senses were keen. It was exceptionally wonderful. I felt so awake, so feminine, so alive.
What do you want for Christmas?
I want the woman I love, wrapped only in a large red bow, tied seductively
around the neck, wearing nothing else, to give me a hug and whisper 'I love you'
in my ear. Then she places her hands on my cheeks and gently kisses me. Then,
voice becoming huskier, says 'Touch me, kiss me, and love me'. The rest of the
present is a spontaneous surprise.
So, what would you like for Christmas, my love?
But I don't care. My love, you need to see me once, then love me one time, and then all your trust issues will be gone. If it happens next week, or next year, I will wait and be there. When you finally cross over 100% your life will be different and I know there is so much love in you that I would wait for years to be on the receiving end of it. I know you are close, but maybe not all the way there yet. I do know that I will tell you every time I see you, or write you, that I love you. Every day. If I don't see you, I will think it a hundred times and maybe one will float across the air and land in your beautiful soul and know I am thinking of you.
When I awaken, you are on my mind. When I go to sleep, you are on my mind (by the way, what do you wear to bed...just curious). When I hear music...see the beautiful fall colors...smell the fresh season....you are on my mind. When I feel the deep physical yearning...you are on my mind....when I want to be held....you are on my mind. I do love you. I really do. And I am so glad that you want me...not just need, but want.
I AM THE ONE....except that I must learn how not to be jealous. I LOVE YOU NOW & FOREVER!!!!
Anytime you wonder if I love you...read this and you will have your answer.
I hope that our love has awakened an ability in you that could never sleep again. You are beautiful, your words are beautiful, our love is beautiful.
You, too, have given me a beautiful ending to the year. Just when I had almost given up on relationships...you taught me a brand new meaning of the word. In my favorite new song, Faith sings.".....you're the miracle that makes me everything I am". I understand...you lift, push, guide, challenge, coax, support, love....what more is there? You will say there is much more. I believe you completely. I trust you without reservation. You are my love. My true love. Your Christmas card ends..."Forever yours, because I wouldn't want to live life any other way". That is my heart...and it is yours. Merry Christmas. I love you.
I am not sure what I did to deserve your love, but I am the
happiest man on earth. You have made me a better person, challenged me to
new thoughts, revived my spirit, aroused passions I thought were dead, made me
feel love again. You are my angel, dressed in satin wings and crowned in a
halo of beauty and light. I did not understand the feelings of soul mates,
or twin flames, until you made me feel them to the depths of my soul. Yes,
I love you with all that I am. You have spun my world, make me smile, lit
a fire that only you can quench.
My resolution this year is about you. To make you
alive. To release your spirit and help you see a world you haven't seen.
I want you to see the person you are, to live the dreams you've dreamt, to feel
the things you've only imagined.
And I hope that takes us a lifetime.
Your voice calms and I start to feel hopeful again. God, I love you. You are wonderful and your outlook is grand...Like a Rock...I really do want you.
I love you with all that I am. I love who you are, what
you are, what you will be. Have a wonderful weekend. Smile, relax,
learn something new, explore. Be yourself. I will be thinking of you
the whole time. You are always with me. I love you in a way I've
never loved before. And its all you.
Yes, I am happier more. I feel alive, well, and it is marvelous to be able to share my thoughts and good conversation with you. It is you. Definitely you...and what I am "with" you. Have I told you that you are the most wonderful man that has ever graced this earth with your existence? I love you...I do. I need you in my life, my soul, my bed.
You are truly a gift, one that I will cherish forever. I have found what I was looking for. I have no desire to look, to search, to compare. You are the one, and I know this with my mind and my soul.
I AM THE ONE FOR ETERNITY!
For the first time in my life, I have dared to say exactly what I feel.
With you it is so easy, and natural, like it was meant to be, and I have finally
found the one that those words and feelings were meant to be said to.
Thank you for showing me that "deserving" is not the
way to view it...that it is based on mutual respect, love, and trust. Thank you
for everything. I love you dearly. sm
When we are together, are there boundaries physically? Are
there times you don't like to be touched? If we finished working out, and
you were plopped on the couch, catching your breath, and I plopped on the floor,
leaning against the couch next to you but on the floor. If I looked over
and saw your thigh, and just licked it from the knee to the bottom of your
shorts, would that bother you? Would it be inappropriate? What if
someone else was in the room? What if we were at dinner in a restaurant
and I took your finger and sucked it like a Popsicle? What if we were at
your families, and I dragged a finger gently from your cheek, down your neck,
arm (slowlyyyy), dropped off to your hip, then very slow along to the inside top
of your thigh, then along the inside to your knee. Then I just joined back
in the conversation. Too weird? Standing behind you, I give you a
gentle neck massage. But I slide my hands along your sides and just under
the armpits I stretch out my fingers and touch the sides of your breasts as I
let my hands go down your sides to your waist. Then I slowly pull you back
into me and press my manhood against your buttocks until you can feel it in the
fold? Too much? Or we are in public, and I spin you around, look
deep into your eyes, searching, find it, and kiss you in a way that leaves you
wet and wanting? Too much? Suppose we're at a party, casual, and
you're wearing shorts and I come up behind you and just nuzzle your neck and
slip my hands into your pocket. I find one has a hole in the bottom.
My finger goes out the hole, slides over a little, and presses against your
lips. You get a little wet, and I slide in. Out of bounds?
I am in one of those moods.....wish you were here. How about tantalizing? How about "feel your breath on my skin", "love you easy", "gently rocking my body and will". My heart is smiling .
I can not possibly describe how I felt Saturday for those few minutes. It was wonderful seeing you and being close. I admit that I felt very nervous...more so than I would ever have thought. My mind was saying "yes, no, touch, don't, careful, feel,stare,look away, etc...etc...all at once! Unreal! Anyway, I felt wonderful after leaving...I felt so happy and alive. I thought, too, of our kiss. I thought of it all night, as I lay in bed. I heard you make a slight sound as we kissed and I had hoped it was a good sound...now I know that is true.
The more I think of the song that helped inspire me to get in
touch with you, the more amazed I am that I felt the way I did for you back
then. You are the most wonderful man I have ever known. You are the love of my
life.
I wish you a few moments of beautiful silence and reflection...time for feeling my love reach out to you, as a breeze brushes your face, or when your hands feels the warmth of the sun, or when a raindrop chills your back...know that I am there, loving you and needing you. You are my dear friend and giver of new life. You are my soul mate and companion. You are my lover.
The weekends should be ours. To love, to talk, to share coffee
in the morning, to laugh as we wake up and kiss before we get out of bed.
To make love, and make plans. Can it really be that way, I hear you
wonder. There is no doubt, my love. Absolutely. It WILL be.
Your dreams will become real. And that will make my dreams real.
..that is not what you and I are about...we are about letting
go, being free, loving completely for who and what we are all of the time..in
every situation of every day...total acceptance. I love you so much.
There will come a day when you believe with all your soul that we will be together forever. When that day comes, and you feel like shouting to the world that you have touched forever, please call me first, and say 'We are forever'. It is then that our souls will meet in the clouds and we will become true wind walkers. I love you now and forever.
Dear God.... you touch me on every level. I am so excited right now. I am trembling. Something has just happened...your description of our love as aroused me just as much as your erotic words. That has NEVER happened to me before...never...until now. This is totally wonderful. I love you so much and I need you with me forever.
I will speak your name softly and whisper words of love. I
will write your name in the sky with all the colors of the world. My heart will
leap for joy at the very thought of you. And I will make love with you, to you ,
forever. You are in my soul. You make me so happy. I love you.
Ditto.
I want you to know, feel, breathe, experience, and most of all
trust, 1 thing: I love you more than any woman I have ever known. I
love the way you look, the way you challenge me intellectually, the way you look
in my eyes, your smile, your body, the way you kiss, who you are, and how you
make me feel about myself, and the how I feel about you at levels of emotion I
have never known. You are my soul mate, my best friend, and my life mate.
Debbie, I love you with all that I am. And that will last forever.
You touch much more than my emotions...you touch the very heart of who I am. You are wonderful. I love your wit, charm, mind, body, and soul. I hope you have a wonderful weekend.....if you have a garage sale...DO NOT sell what is mine!!!!
Found it: Sept 14 is the date:
Do I love you?Yes. Have for a long
time-before I left. I fantasized back then. And I mean that on the purest level
(well, not all of it , but some of it-enough of it) On what level? I don't know
yet. We shall see.
I thought I heard you imply I was pushing too fast. The last thing I want to do is scare you off with my own feelings, especially if they aren't in synch with yours. But all this thinking has led me to 1 inescapable fact. I had to be honest. I love you.
You have a very calming, yet exciting influence. You stir my emotions. You move me. I love and adore you. When I think of adoration, I think of devoted love. I feel this for my daughter, but have never felt this for a man. Now I do, and it is wonderful. It is so nice to think of how my actions/reactions to a given situation can cause happiness/pain to you. It makes me mindful of what I do/don't do ...not because I must, nor even because you will ever know...but because I want to please you and please myself in my devotion to you...I will think of you this weekend. I so look forward to having some real time with you again soon...to hold you and kiss you...to lay quietly with you. I miss you and love you with all my heart.
Christmas, 2001:
Merry Christmas, love.
You are a special gift to me.
I could ask for nothing more than your love.
In your arms, in your heart, in your soul,
I am at peace.
I am in love.
Forever, with you.
Yes, this is a special time. It is Christmas....a wonderful time
of year. My Christmas wish for you is happy times with your children....cherish
every minute, please. I also wish for you the warmth of knowing that I am with
you on so many levels. My love for you is real, stong, and true. We have so much
to look forward to, but please don't look forward so much during this time that
you do not appreciate all that is around you (I am also speaking to myself). I
love you ....now and forever. Merry Christmas, my love.
This is true
Happy New Year love.
May all your dreams come true this year. I will do whatever you would like
to help you make that happen. I am there for you, now and forever.
Dream, wish, then lets make it happen.
Happy New Year.
You ARE my dream, so I am living a dream every day. Your love is a gift
that I thought could never happen.
To my best friend, my soul mate, my lover: Forever.
All my love in 2002 and beyond, SM